Friday, 13 October 2017

轻小说:时光当铺 读后感想 及 自个的胡思乱想。。。(1)

 

作者:千川
绘画:Ooi Choon Liang
出版社:尖端出版

一本书籍如果让人舍不得放下,一直一页一页的翻阅,随后到有种忽视周遭环境,把人吸进故事里的境界。对于那位读者来说,这本书是成功的。而我就是那名读者。

至少对我而言。

那种感觉是舒服的,是平静的。随着故事的发展,情绪也有所变化。有微笑、有难过,甚至感人到眼泪在眼珠里打转的时候,不得停下来恢复自己的情绪。但很快的,还是拿起书本继续阅读下去。

似乎好久没有享受阅读所带来的 “与世隔绝” 、“一切都是身外物” 的那种感觉了。很庆幸我那天不知何故为何一直在小说书籍打转后所随机买下一整套小说系列的决定。(坦言:书的绘画是主要吸引我目光的主因)

一整套 《时光當铺》总共5册,而每一册的故事中,总会有些让我突然有种思想的启发,或是对某种社会或人类性格、思想课题深思探讨的时候。尤其在回家途中,在别人眼里我看起来似乎突然间定格时,正是我沉思之时。
举例 (第一册中)
互相利用,本就是人与人之间最基本也最重要的联系,这种[利用]并不是那种传统意义上带有贬义的[利用],而是代表了一种需求。

在阅读这本书前,我一向来的想法是:人与人之间的来往本来就是为了互相利用为前提而存在的。

孩子饿了找妈妈,妈妈准备食物。孩子吃了、饱了。利用与妈妈的关系填饱自己的肚子。在外,肚子饿了到餐厅,就是为了利用某人会做菜的本事,以金钱换取一餐饭来填饱自己的肚子。和朋友聚在一起谈心,看电影也是利用朋友的存在不让自己寂寞、空虚而已。借助别人的关系让自己好过,以此类推。

想法是偏激了点所以我并不喜欢也不常与人交涉,除非不得已。。。家人也不例外(坦言:我确实性格孤僻)

接下来读到这一段时,突然就有所领悟。
我们之所以讨厌[利用]这个词,是因为在大多数时候我们将它和过于现实的事联系在一起,并且本能地避免把这词放到一些美好的事物上,来保证其纯净无瑕。

难怪我会对于自己人与人之间的所谓《利用论》那么反感,与人交涉的负面情绪会不知觉涌上来。(坦言:我确实是个很现实的一个人)

举例 (第二册中)
我们有权犯错,我们有权后悔,因为一帆风顺、平静无波的人生,只是一条流水线上的尸体工厂而已。

想想。确实如此。为了独立,为了生活,尽管不是自己喜欢的领域却安全性的选择 “对”的职业。换来的却是像器械人一样, 已设定好的模式为:上班、下班、回家 而生活着。

对于我,这一种性格现实又孤僻的人来说,明显的消弱我在精神上和对生活上的热诚。成了为了等死而活的丧尸。我没有勇气去犯错,没有勇气面对后悔,因为维持生计是当务之急,是必须的。社会是现实的。

还活着的一天,我想就得想办法活下去。这也许是作者所提到的:
一种生靈本能的保护机制。

为了让我在精神上有所寄托、让我自己无味的人生稍微没那么凄惨,我尝试了改变。当时不知哪来的勇气和意志,跨出了那么一小步。

约一年前,在网上设立了一间小铺子,做点小生意,买卖手工物品及相关物品。十字绣是唯一让我有继续面对生活压力并且走下去的嗜好。在不影响日常工作的情况下有了副业,虽然和故事的主人翁 “阿乐”一样,是个赚不到什么钱的小副业,但还是做了。


我不常用中文表达思绪。
但是从第一本得到的启发,让我联想到很多事。
现实的社会、人性的内心纠葛,看待物品或人的标准,等等。。。

这是在书局归类为:轻小说的书籍。
但看起来我似乎做了有点夸张的比喻。哈哈!

期待第三本。
不知道还会带给我什么惊喜。

Wednesday, 23 August 2017

Rain's Kitchen: Kueh Salat (Kuih Salat / Kueh Seri Muka / Kuih Seri Muka) (4)

It was about 3yrs ago when I last made kueh salat/kueh seri muka.

Recipe from a older post I did: Click here to read Oct 2014 / Click here to read Dec 2014

Every thing remain unchanged but the lack of fire control leads to uneven surface of the kueh itself. Other than that, taste not bad.  I don't really like sweet stuff so the sweetness of the custard is just nice to my liking.

Pictures below:


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Nothing much to update about my life except for the fact I met up with my bff after so long.  It has been really long since I actually met up with anyone for a meal and chat.  Most of the time I would rather stay home and do my cross-stitch and if not my 6km+ jog/walk over the weekends.

She insisted on making me the bridesmaid by the way thou I straight out ask if I can NOT go for her wedding.  It really is a very awkward situation for me as I am not a sociable person and have some kind of agoraphobia going on.

It will damper the spirits on her wedding day which is something I didn't want to happen but it will happen given how anti-social I am... = (

Sigh...

Btw, the xmas design I mention in my previous post has been listed on my Etsy blog:


Not too bad eh?  It is done on a gold flecked fabric which kind of adds some festiveness to it. If you would like to buy this pattern, click here to go to my Etsy page.  Its S$6.67 and there would be 3 PDFs available for download. 1 instruction, 1 b&w chart, 2 color chart.

There is only 1 sale in my shop for July and not yet for Aug.  Has been pretty quiet lately.  Adding on the change in Etsy as well.  I wonder if there is any link coz all the while it has been quite constant at 2 sales per month.

Not complaining thou... Just curious...  Etsy is just my sideline job...  I still have a 9am-6pm job... but i don't compromise my order processing time.  In fact, once I went home during my lunch hour to get my order items from home and pack them in office and mail it out after work.

That was a rather adrenaline pumped up day.  Doubt I would be able to do that again but who knows I might just bend my back a little if all conditions make it possible.  For e.g closing account period is over

I guess that's all for the random brief update.

Friday, 7 July 2017

random

currently designing a xmas stitch pattern...

border is ready now left with what to fill it in with...

no idea why but my aunt cant seem to understand my art?

dove looks like chicken?

christmas ornaments with reindeer hoof looks like bald man with mustache looking down?

WTF =.=