Friday, 7 July 2017

random

currently designing a xmas stitch pattern...

border is ready now left with what to fill it in with...

no idea why but my aunt cant seem to understand my art?

dove looks like chicken?

christmas ornaments with reindeer hoof looks like bald man with mustache looking down?

WTF =.=

Monday, 19 June 2017

still surviving...

am still surviving in reality.

nothing much changed.

the holiday inn resort trip for bday was great with the exception that i really had a bad nightmare on the first night (first time ever in holiday inn actually) and actually requested for a room change the next morning at 8am ish i think.

the customer service was great! they allowed me a room change at no extra cost.

also, a birthday cake was actually sent to my room on my birthday itself! how sweet... had to trouble the guy thou, because of the room change, i think he went to my previous room first. =X

everything is perfect actually, except that minor hiccup in the beginning...

coming next mth, in mid july, i'm gg batam again but this time with my aunts and mum to another resort we went together before. to celebrate my aunt's bday.

everything is booked and i even threw in a surprise bday cake for my aunt as well. hahah. excited for this trip actually.

but knowing sharing the room with aunts and mum, this time round i will bring my ear plugs.  i had trouble sleeping back then when we went together in the previous trip....

etsy shop.

sales is quite constant at about 2 per month.  in may, there was 3.  gratefully for every order be it small (2m ribbons) or big (180 stickers).  i mean, really grateful coz among the millions of sellers out there, they decide to get their stuff from mine.

how not to be grateful for this?

already had 2 orders for june... *cross fingers for more*

Thursday, 11 May 2017

...

got annoyed at my mum who simply just want to celebrate my lunar bday (vesak day) with me... i've told her many times i hate bday celebrations and i don't wish to celebrate my bday but year after year she forgets and wants to make arrangements for dinner.

i think as a mum it hurts a lot when their child is such a negative and angry person and there's nothing she could do to change that. i could have just treated it as a normal dinner instead but nooooo my mood just snap at an instant when she asked me out.

she's not a nobody but my mum, so why am i doing this?

i have no idea...

i just simply hate gatherings, meet ups and having to get my ass away from home... its a hassle to travel out, hassle to hold conversations, hassle to listen to other people and staying sane from the noises outside...

i get very irritated outside and i just want to avoid that...

knowing the person i am, i swore i would never have children because I know I wouldn't be able to handle a kid who is like me.  then again, given my ability to cut relations even to my closest relatives i don't see how difficult it is to cut my child away from me if i ever had one whose like me... but no, i'm sparing myself of such troubles and chose to remain single...

i doubt there's another who would be able to tolerate my negativeness and anger and still 'love' me that way anyway... he must be nuts in the head to...

can't wait for sunday when i'm off to batam alone and just shut myself away in the resort doing nthing but spa, cartoon network, ordering room service and stitching in the room...

random rant over.