Thursday, 25 August 2016

FML

WHY

why does it feel like my colleague is trying to piss the hell out of me...

is she plain dumb? or playing dumb?

the very least she could do is to ask for my opinion first before deciding on it cos it affects me directly....

the longer one stays with a company, the more they take advantage of you especially in times when saving cost is concern.... they push you with more work and you take on more task which is exceeding what your initial job scope was...

to be loyal or not?

i should have run after 2yrs as recommended by ex-colleague and not stayed on. developing a relationship only to have it crushed bit by bit is excruciating....

5yrs of loyalty is more than enough right?

Tuesday, 23 August 2016

=(

many things happened and accumulated since about 2 years ago and i think its beginning to show on my face very often these days.

i have lost the interest in working for this company and more importantly, becoming increasingly pissed off and unhappy at work.

thinking back its quite sad for me cause i love this place so much when i started here. it was rocky initially as i had less than 2 weeks of training before i took over but i overcame it with help of accountants. atmosphere in office was generally positive, no backstabbing or politics to speak off.

everything slowly went downhill from there after the secretary left... 2 years later, another colleague left...

hate how angry i have become at work.... how sibeh what the fuck i end up... just unhappy...

i wonder how long more i can tolerate this before i decide to call it quits....

don't worry thou, i won't do anything drastic to myself. i still have 6 cross stitch pictures not completed yet... the most would only be lost my appetite for food during the day nia...

Friday, 19 August 2016

Bye Dayre

I quit dayre.

Actually quite awhile ago I had been deleting my post.  Initially was just to tidy up with only 1 year as backup but the deletion got a bit too intense.

Well, one of the reason is that most people I followed have not been updating.  The community there quite friendly and supportive but compare to initially when it first started, just did not feel the same anymore.  I am not sure if constant progression eroded the initial 'tight' community feel. Like... how should I put it?

It became like out in the open????? You know, like a village being opened to tourist/foreigners and in time, it became too popular and soon underlying problems surfaced.  What's meant to be like open sharing suddenly have to 三言忌口.  You have to watch what you say because if it gets too personal someone you know/don't know could use that against you or your family? or relatives and friends somehow know about it and question you/your family.

Not that it happened to me (ok, it did. my excolleague read about the shit i vent out at work about her which eventually strain the working relationship somehow) but some of the people I have followed before.  Soon, people I follow started to lose interest in updating and some eventually just disappeared.

It was not before long, I also somehow lost the interest in updating but the constant addiction of having to update something even when there's nothing interesting annoyed me.  I start to wonder, should I try to slowly snap out of it. Like you know, it felt like drug addiction but the medium in question is not drugs but facing the mobile phone. So.... i need to quit... 戒毒...

Was not easy trying to cut my daily update addiction.  I still updated daily but in time...

Number of pictures lessened...

Number of words lessened...

Also, to kick the addiction, I uninstall the app on my tablet first to remove the extra avenue to update.  In the meanwhile, I was still deleting post a bit at the time.  Initially as mention its meant for 1 year backup but the possible idea of totally giving up dayre grew bit by bit and slowly the post deletion moved up 1 month by 1 month.... Its only matter of time that I finally pull the plug with that app...

Finally on the 8th of August, I uninstalled the app on my mobile phone.  Could not find any delete account anywhere at all so no choice the account will be left hanging there.  I think its just fucked up that there's no delete account button.  Like you are forced to be still apart of them whether you like it or not.  So I search online and apparently there is a way to delete your account but provided you kept the initial account creation email which I deleted long ago.

*slaps head*

So whatever, I changed password to that dayre account of mine but it did not work the same way as I hope.  I reckon with time I would have forgotten about the new password coz I did not bother writing it down.

Then days later I read online about Qiu's case against the group that is like sister company to the creator of dayre.  I am like 他妈的!Everything happened for a reason. Why I suddenly lost interest in updating and eventually deleted the app.

If you follow online bloggers you would have heard about the GC case exposed by XX back then.  I honestly think that NN/NG is a company which is opposite of GC.  Like a big happy honest family but it seems otherwise.

Not sure if the entire board is like that or is that one particular person who backstabbed Qiu that is the problem but it already affected my impression of the clean NN/NG.  I honestly didn't want to be associated anymore with them already.

I decide to also close my NN account and CC account which I signed up initially hoping to earn some side income from the ads on my blog.  To be honest, if you are just a nobody, you will not earned at all.  Took quite awhile for a response on my query on account deletion.  In exchange to close my account, I forfeited the earnings (in total about merely S$8 from both accounts)

update on 22/08/16. accounts officially closed with both sides

Back to dayre. I did not suffered from withdrawal symptoms. In actual fact, I feel awesome.  Like I had more time for my other stuff then to waste time looking at my mobile phone. As it ends up, it was not that bad like I imagined.  Did not look back since.

Bye Dayre, it was fun when it lasted.

Ok, time to test out this recipe I had in mind, will update on Instagram or maybe blog about it if its successful. I have not been in the kitchen testing recipes for so long, skills feels damn rusty...